No therapist call.
Yesterday was a crummy day at work. I want to qualify this by saying it was still better than the best day I ever had at a retail job or when I worked for GE, but compared to the days I’ve been having recently (small amount of pretty fun work, lots of fiddling) it sucked. EP asked me to copy two very large volumes of meds before the end of the day, meds which have goddamn post-its ALL OVER THEM. She knew about this deadline long ago and yet failed to give me any notice at all. This is not as bad as, say, a rush for a previous case that had 11 volumes of meds, but still…I don’t understand why she does this, why she doesn’t at least try to help me do my work more efficiently. I was also asked to request a huge slew of records, which I do so frequently that it’s become almost second nature, but it’s still a meticulous process and I found it hard to concentrate. I was also asked to burn a bunch of CDs (which occurs at someone else’s desk), but I wanted to do homework and then go to yoga, and I wasn’t sure if we had enough labels, so I did this: I burned 2 sets out of 5, doing some reading while they whirred away, and then went to Kinko’s and bought labels, and then went to yoga. Then I got up early this morning and went to work at early-thirty (ish) to burn the rest before BB got to work. This turned out not to be necessary, as BB still hasn’t arrived at work yet and thence may not be in today; however it led to a stupid little farce wherein MD saw my car and didn’t think to look for me elsewhere in the office than my desk, and so called BF and asked him where I was, and then when DT got to work she called BB’s desk and the mystery was solved. It’s a stupid thing, but I can’t help being incredulous at MD for playing such a complex game when he could have walked upstairs and not wasted anyone else’s time. He thanked me twice for coming in early; I did not bother to tell him that it was someone else’s baffling decision to put the CD burner on BB’s computer that caused me to have to do this so as not to waste BB’s time.
I have a jumble of things to do today – phone calls, letters, filing, etc. and I feel very lazy. What I’d really like is some more sleep - I woke up at 2:45 and laid there not sleeping for an hour. I kept thinking to myself (tiredly) “what are you doing? You’re tired, it’s the middle of the night, BF is breathing peacefully next to you, you’re warm and comfy, why aren’t you sleeping??” I think this wrecked the whole pattern of sleep for the night because I am far tireder than usual today.
Yoga was good yesterday, although the whole session I kept feeling I was skimping on my chaturanga and going straight to updog, because as I referred to previously, Kathleen moves from down dog to up dog so fast. Also, I am finding that if I have to do chair pose for even a short time, it ruins my quads for the rest of the session – I can’t do any warrior or lunge poses without them burning immediately. I’m not sure why this is. I guess I’ll just have to add chair to my list of things to practice every day – along with headstand attempts, standing balances, backbends, arm balances, core work…okay, so that’s just about everything. What?
Some of the people from last Wednesday were there again, and there were some “new” people – new to the class, surely not new to yoga. There was a very attractive woman there who did a perfect headstand in the middle of the room, and I wanted to applaud her for it, but the mood isn’t the same in this class as it is on Sunday. I like this routine, though – Wednesday, Sunday, and practicing at home in between when I have time. I hope I don’t have to give it up for class, although I’m already thinking I need to really get down to business tonight and this weekend. There’s so much! And I realized when I was reading Chapter 1 yesterday that I don’t have the examples at work to guide me through like I did in Torts or the civil sections of my other classes last semester. This is nearly all foreign (because TV is largely unrealistic, as everyone knows, and even if I have read Helter Skelter 500 times, that was not exactly a routine trial).
I wish I had a porch to sit on and a cool drink to sip before I nod off. Instead…
(later)
Oh heavens, this day is even better! Along with ridiculous copying jobs, I am getting email after email to check on meds that I requested in April. Yes, this is my job, thanks for reminding me; it doesn’t mean I like doing it. I have 4 clients to follow up on now, each of which has several providers I have to call, plus all the other stuff I’ve been avoiding doing during the slow time of the last couple of weeks. FUCK. Now how will I ever catch up on school?
